Love

You gaze into my eye

You will not let me hide

My time has come to say I think I love you too.

You are so kind to me. I want to saver you

My love took time to show but you waited so patiently

Please don't get scared my love is here to stay!

Melting

Deep breath

inhale

hold

exhale.

Close your eyes and drift.

See a light

run for life.

What do I see?

An Image of me

running

falling

Where am I?

My body floats to the sun

Flowers melt away

feel nothing

I am not aware

I don't even care.

My Own Me

I look in the mirror and see my reflextion,

A reflextion so strong I look away.

As I look back on my reflection I see my body,

A body that some may laugh at

and others may die for.

I see my lips and ponder on the thought,

that nobody on this planet has this same body.

This body is mine.

I am not a double,

or even a tripple.

I am a single

My own me.

I am my own me!

Empty Soul

My Soul is hidden deep within my thoughts

I struggle to find my soul

and only find a lonely fool

I want to believe I am strong

but find I am week

Help me look for my soul

and find what is inside me!

Lost

Lost in a world of confusion and doubt,
I can't decide if I want out,
I've seen my mistakes
and try not to hate,
but this life I lead
It's making me bleed.

I'm loosing my mind
but I won't look behind
the memories are fading
as we go on hating.

The Pain You Left

No one knows just how I feel,
The Pain you left keeps me dieing.
You left me once and then again.
What was I to do,
What was I to say.
Don't you see the pain you left?
Because you I am afraid to love and I am afraid to feel.
Please, Please try to understand the pain you left not once but twice.
The pain you left keeps me dieing!

It is what it is

So here it is. I have been bugging my husband to start a blog because he is an excellent writer, imaginative as well as creative. I envisions what it might do for him and the things he could come up with. After pushing the idea for so long it dawned on me that maybe I need to just do it for myself and see what it will do for me! I don't envision much but spelling errors followed by grammatical errors. So if you read this I am sure my words are misspelled and I have used to many commas or I put them in the wrong spot. Feel free to edit my Aimless Words!

I am not sure yet what I intend to do with my blog and my title is very fitting at the current moment. I don't want to discuss current topics that brings on to much debate. I don't want to figure out how to stop global warming or find ways to save Haiti. I guess I would like to escape all that and find a place where we don't create controversy or try to out do each other. I like to look at life as it is what it is and you get what you get. However, there is a side of me that says you get what you take.....I think the older I get the more aware I am of taking what you want. You can take all day long what you think is rightfully yours but in the end it is what it is and there is really nothing more to it.

I don't mean to be boring or uninsightful. I didn't invite you to read this you happened to come across it for whatever reason. I apologize if you have gotten this far and you were looking for something more insightful. My words are aimless without meaning or direction and at the moment they are what they are! Take my words as you will and do what you want with them. Don't prejudge me, I am a very emotional person and I have a big heart. I truly want what's right in the world and maybe I am depressed, maybe I am reaching the age of awareness, call it what you will but it's hard to find meaning in the world right now and I am just plain tired of making excuses for everything that is wrong in the world. But again I don't want to go there. I am sure there will be readers, maybe, who will think this is flighty and pointless....again I did not invite you here but welcome.

I do hope to accomplish something with this. I am not sure how or even what. I think if I just go with it something will come of it. I have followed structure through out might life. I have never thrown caution to the wind to see where I end up. So this is my version of that. This blog will not have a direction it will be aimless. What comes of it we will have to see and I hope it will be insightful in it's own way to everyone individually, I won't push it though and try to make it happen. I want to go where the words take me and in the end where ever we end up and what ever happens it will be just that nothing more nothing less.....life is what it is noting more nothing less.